jus got back another 2 papers today... thanks to my paper 1, my econs got pulled up to a B... but its the first time i got a B, so still qte contented thou it shuden b the case... u noe econs they were very kind... they rounded up all scores (eg. 68.1 is rounded up to 69)... and those missing a grade by one mark get pushed up a grade... (ie. 69 is an A) but sadly, i benefit from none of the moderations. ccc said this is akin to baby bonus or smth similar , lol... sounds attractive but actually not many ppl benefit from it...

the other paper i got back is maths... i really dunno if i should be disappointed or relieved... coz i knew i did badly, i tot i was gonna fail for sure... it turned out out that i was 3 marks away from an A... so its a B in the end... but it still felt really bad, coz i heard overall abt half the cohort got A...and my maths standard has dropped to the extent that i was relieved to some extent when i got merely B... i m more disappointed by myself, rather than the results...

some reassurance + advices from my tchers really made me feel better... i hope i will jia you and do better than this... got so far 4 Bs, 1C and 1U... haiz.. no A at all... for one entire year... i m very sad la... how maluating can that get? ppl collecting As like nobody's business, while i din even get a single one, for the entire year! kaoZ!!!

my ct was telling me, i can still take SATs and that mayb i should try to apply for US universities afterall... its setting me back into dilemma... jus when i thot i made up my mind not to go overseas... bahhh... advice please?

On more thing to mention is abt my autograph book... i realised some ppl forgot to include contact details, which is wad i really hope u guys will write down, to facilitate future gatherings n wadeva else... and please do not write anything offensive.. oh that note, i feel like killing chai nei... so any kind soul who sees this msg, pls rip him apart for me... i scolded him asshole at least 3 times today... my classmates was so shocked n said i dun look like someone who will use that word... (but actually i can b qte blunt / vulgar if u noe me long enough) heh... =P

I got back chem and physics as well today. Well, i did much better than expected thou it was nothing close to fantastic... chem i barely got a C... a few of us got C for chem... and ys was commenting that those with C in their names have high affinity to get C for Chem... lol... like me, cc, jireh n ys himself... lolx!~

Oh Physics i heng heng got a B. But u dun wanna noe wads the percentage of As and Bs.. it unbelievable... damn high... jus like the percentages for chem scores... goodness.. ppl are getting As like as thou its chicken feet to them, while i dun even smell an A lar... crappp...

Oh some miracle happened to me today... coz this time round generally most ppl fared qte badly for GP... I got like B3 which is a 3 grade jump from the last common test... it was really oh-my-gawd... but i used to get B grades for GP den it dropped to a C6 last time round... i m very unsteady for my GP... so i'm pretty worried...

U noe its qte sad to see my self rejoicing over a B or C grade when others r not even happy with their A grades... sigh.. well i shall await my screwed up maths n econs results tmr... i really dun wish to cry during maths, but i jus hope i dun lose control... proabably meeting mad later to pass her some papers... yepp... shall end here! coz i wanna go read my storybook. heh.(I'll tell u guys more abt this another time, its a really good read.)*waves*

i decided to come and write an entry for my blog to mark the last day of my life. getting back prelim results tmr. but i dun sense any glimpse of hope. optimism dusen work for a hopeless case like me. arghhh wad a failure. i will have absolutely no life from the moment i wake up tmr. i really dread that, but i have no choice. coz my studies really sux beeg time. now i really noe wad it feels like when u utterly sux, yet ppl getting Bs keep complaining abt how badly they fared... its jus me lar.

sorreh to decline the nice invitations. movies? no. kbox? no. clubbing? no. bahhhh... if i start swearing on my blog from tmr... its expected... i apologise beforehand thou... the only good news is that i'm still alive... sigh...

i had lunch with pj n wz. thou the rest were suppose to turn up but didnt for various reasons. blehhh. we had lunch at suki r@men, but no we din eat ramen. haha. btw, we were honoured to have had the presence of ccc over lunch. *grins* pls scroll all the way down to the end of the photos to figure out why... we had yummy yummy food. =D

den we met up with mad aka tweenie to take neoprints. we look qte un-pro, coz that machine kinda start taking photos b4 we cud react. and we had 5 ppl in the screen, damn hard to squeeze in... wahahaha... catch a glimpse of the neoprints taken below. we were choosing which shots to print, den i happily went, "ohhh that one with me n mad!" which was qte dumb coz we appeared in ALL the shots. lolx!~

Mad aka tweenie passed me a shell necklace that she got for me! and i like it!!! hmm... i presume that was my bday present... but dusen matter since i still get the gift all the same ^^ thank you babe!!! hope she likes mr brinjal that i got for her too!

den we met up with han to go kbox. she said we got prettier, so she cuden recognise us if not for our heights. hmmm i wonder if she meant to praise us or suan us. roflmao~

kbox session was exceptionally fun somehow. i think those kbox waiters (n mayb waitresses) are kinda scared of us. i think we're very troublesome. but really not our fault lor. who the hell brings 5 empty cups in den take 15 mins to bring in a jar lemon tea? wahahaha... n thanks to wz n ccc n han, who were commenting on which waiter was cuter on their way to the toilet... kaoz... but out of the 3 only 2 of them cute la. but wadeva. u guys noe i dun really bother n i cant rmb looks well. b4 we were abt to leave, wz even said, "got another one.." when one of the 3 waiters were just behind her. lolx!~ so paiseh. oh yar another maluating incident, the 4 of us were standing on their sofa singing some really high song, when one of the waiter had to come in to ask wad drinks we want. i think he was as shocked as we were. luckily the song was abt to end, so we sat down really quickly. oh han's "I'm HUNGRY!" thing was another beeg joke... haha... for insiders la, lazy to elaborate... =)

oh the waitress told us our session end at 6 and asked if we wanna extend by ordering more drinks, which i immediately said NO, but we sang till abt 7 plus, and yet no one came to boot us out. i think they might have blacklisted me thou, coz i used my membership card. joking. on our way out, the waitress asked for our room number while thanking us, so that they can clear up. we haven got the chance to reply yet, den one the waiter st away answered 30. wahahahha... to the extent that they know which room we r from.. qte sad.. we must have been really terrible... hehheh... *evil grin* (ps: sorreh tweenie, i think u excluded the details, but i got so high thinking abt it, that i blog qte a few things that happened at kbox. =)

i bet we all had fun at the kbox-almost-turned-to-gossiping session. but all of us missed chi zhi cheng long at 7pm... hai... nvm, anw, we headed home, n han told us a lot of stuff that we neva knew.. abt her experience at aj... hmmm... ohoh next gathering at han place after As... full gathering i hope (but it really depends u see)... oh no damn cheong hei... bye!~

"You have only lost someone who doesn't love you, but on the other hand, he lost someone who loves him dearly."

' People fall in love because we cannot survive alone. So God knowing this and all, invents "love" to encourage us mortals to seek a partner, saving us from finding out that we cannot live alone the hard way.'

ohh well, it wasnt that bad a day after all, despite the hip hop thingey and the fact that we kept losing our way, coz we visited candy empire!! hahaha.. i bot nice yummy delicious mint chocolates!!! damn nice.. and jelly beans and gummies too! wooohh... heee~ dun b envious! ...and dun snatch from me. blehhhh. jus go n get some urself! *evil laughters* everybody should visit candy empire, those who dusen appreciate candy empire, u derno wad u're missing out!

After our splurging and sinful session at canday empire, we went on to spent more money... I had my dosage of rumba frap at starbucks.. where we sat down, slacked ard, and had a pretty nice n long chat... abt almost anything under the sun... wz was telling me later on, she reckoned that the best frens are those who met in primary sch.. and i find it sooooo true after all... haha... never forgot abt them thou zillions years haf passed... a couple of us, thou not the majority, still goes out tgt...

anw, den we went ard looking for an autograph book. but din find any saitisfactory one... so me n wz jus shopped ard while ccc left early... qte a nice day la... havent exactly gone out with more than one pri sch fren tgt for qte some time... jus tot of those wonderful memories... yepp.. life hasnt really been in vain afterall... *smiles*

haha..life is just so nice without exams, but i know this is short-lived... given the fact that theres still As and also the fact that i din do well for prelims, but still gotta get back my results... i feel like smth cliche, i hope the frenships made during my sch days will never end.. they are how precious la...

that brings me to another pt, abt attitude change of pple.. i am clearly not in any positions to judge if wad others are doing are right or wrong... but somehow, i realised i wasn't the only one who felt the attitude change... sometimes u just cant help but feel that some ppl say something very nicely, as in they make themselves sound very great, but words dun mean anything if they dun tally with your actions... hmmm, jus some of my thots la...

after kbox, i had dinner at ps with wh n kp... wh was jus venting... and kp n i wonder if he was keeping anything from us.. oh btw, did i mention at kbox, py msged me n ws msged kp, but both of us din reply.. n we wonder y they din msg wh... haha... oh anw, they tokked abt some stuff that i din really get, and they refused to tell me wad, but i trust that they mean no harm, so i din probe on...

anw, kp, wh n i had lotsa fun as we took turns to target one person at one time, den we keep suanning n diao-ing each other... we were laughing like crazie ppl at ps, going in and out of the shops, haiz totally no image liao, but heck la...

on the way home, kp n i met karen n bertram jialun from our sch. we barely know each other... but we miraculously chatted for qte long while waiting for the train... we even missed a train but thats besides the pt... i think only kp kinda know karen... haha.. weird... hmmm... i oso realised i haven chat with kp for so long, coz last time from ghim moh campus we can chat on the way home, but lesser chance ever since we moved to the new campus...

kk this has totally no relation to wadeva mentioned above... but i jus wanna complain abt ps' korean food stall! they charged $4.50 for bbq chicken meal, but they charged me $6.00 for essentially the same thing other than i ordered bbq beef... walau... so unfair... blehhh...>.<

hi to the rest of the world. just to announce that i m still alive, hanging on to the end of my rope like theres no tmr... technically at this pt of time, i kinda wish tmr never comes. hai. shall go back to mug phy. can never finish mugging. and i think my econs is screwed... *faints*

i was waiting for my bus to get home at the interchange. btw, i was the last in the queue, but the queue wasn't exceptionally long... anw, i was jus spaced out, ie. i was stoning... i din know wad i was doing... in fact, i was doing nothing, but it din occur to me that i was stoning and not thinking logically... when i finally got back my senses, i turned to my left to find myself standing in the middle of an empty lane, alone. the rest of the commuters have all boarded the bus and left. like oh my gawd, wad the hell did i jus do? so i moved to the front the queue lane and happily watch my bus leave the bus interchange...

studying too much does have bad side-effects on people, esp. regarding the proper functioning of the brain. So BEWARE! but for ppl like me who are struggling to finish revision for prelims, we jus haf no choice, but to kill or overheat or damage or destroy or drown or stupidify more brain cells. Arghhhh......